My life

What is it LOVE?

What is it love?

Can you explain this feeling? Can you feel it? Can it last? Will it come to me?

Love is a feeling. That means that you really feel this. In your body, in yourself. Its not something you only talk about. And not all the people feel the same. I think that the more our heart is pure, the more we are able to feel it. But our partner also has to have this beautiful pure heart, only than we are able to feel this miracle. Many people that seem strict and closed, many of them have such heart. They seem cold, but its because their heart might have been hurt or they don't believe that there is a partner that matches their heart. They don't like anything fake, so they rather devote their time to work.

When you have sufferings, it hurts you deeply, but at the same time it opens your heart. When you accept all the loses with humble heart, when you notice other people' s problems. If you are willing to help the stranger, you definitely have this marvelous, loving heart.

The saddest thing is when a person wants to tie his partner just for himself. Love is giving. It does not only expect best things for ourselves.  Some people start to feel in love and want to keep it for themselves demanding that person only for themselves more and more, which is such selfishness. Love is a miracle, fragile gift from above...

Work on yourself, on your ability to feel emotions...Sadness and joy, simple loving moments even in times of difficult times. Make your heart pure by letting go of everything that blocks your life. Work on making changes, be nice to yourself, always. Do not be afraid of broken heart, because if you are, you will not feel this miracle. Because you must give chance to it. Be thankfull for all the new amazing people in our life. And what if they are not there? What if we alone? You must find joy even in this situation. 

I deeply believe that all the hard work is worth it..so give thanks always..even if you are not there yet..but do not lose your right path. Walk it with love...Be loving warrior...

 

 

Simple life - gateway to our happiness ?

Have you thought about having less as being a good thing?

Why people speak about minimalism as something that atracts them so much?

How to overcome situation when we don't have even necessary things needed for living?

You should be happy with little and simple living, but work for yourself a lot.

Believe me, I know, I understand.... I told you I had everything in my life, but after my family died all the possesion started to disepear and got stolen. Buildings, cars, projects, materials and people I always loved were not here to help it. I was devastated. 

But all the tragedies can also be big lessons for us, for our humanity, for making us aware of how in pain many people can bedo and teaches us to find a new way out and shows us new possibilites for us. We are sometimes so sure about everything that we have in our life that we stop seeing it as a gift. We think these things would never happen to us, some people have certain problems because maybe they are not so good in solving things as we are. But this is wrong. Its just pride. And life teaches us to feel and see everything from different angle. It shocks us, but we can also learn from it.

Many people say that great ideas come to our minds when we are not disturbed by so much stuff or noise or oppinions of our family or friends what we should do. Sometimes we just keep fulfilling demands of others and we are happy that they see us as a good person. They praise us and we feel so well than that they value us. But, when we are not afected so much by all of the opinions or demands people have on us, we slowly start to think so different. We see things so much more clearly. We can calm our minds, our hearts, we understand all the beauty around us and most of all, we can concentrate on things that we really are focused on. We also can finally unerstand ourselves, and we can also find our own passions. Our love can get to a different level. Because we are love and we should be able to feel love in all what we do, and feel it to the people around us. Than we can be inspiring, when we besides our bad days or our loses love our life so much. We must be gratefull for every little step and be ready to put together all the little pieces into one big and beautiful picture of our life. And we must believe in it. That all the bad things happening us are also a part of this plan. Of this beautiful picture. Because in beautiful paintings the painter has to use black colour as well. Not only bright colours. Only than when the painter uses these colours, only than the final art is magnificent. So believe in yourself! And have faith!

How do we heal? Can we find happiness?

Why healing? Why everybody speak about it?  We are just fine,  or not? 

Well,  maybe we don't  feel very good.  But how can we heal?

What if we feel lonely and have many fears and problems. Can everything be healed? 

Can we really find happiness by trying to start our healing process? 

I'm very sorry, I didn't write anything for  few weeks. The truth Is I didn't want to even think about my problems, about my sadness, about my sorrows, about my insecurities, and also  about my guilt in whatever i did wrong in certain situation. What I wanted was JUST forget about everything especially about my past that I didn't want to deal with and just pretend everything is ok. I can put all my hurting info my uncousness and just didn't pay attention to it. But the feelings come back every once in a while and destroying the beauty od my everyday life.

I think that the only way how se can heal Is through love. Only love can heal everything. 

Love is the power of our healing, love can so much speed our healing process, love is the answer. 

First, we should learn to love ourselves, which also means to forgive ourselves that sometimes we do something that we are not proud of. To heal means to be kind and patient with ouselves. Live gives us challenges and wei have to learn to manage them on the way. Sometimes we don't know if we decide right or wrong, if the decision we are making is the one for better future. And for our growth as a person. 

In our depths we find out about ourselves and others so much information... Our down points, our stressful situation and real strugles sometimes help us to be stronger more than we imagine. It can also be a gateway to our better lifes, our better future success or happiness. When being desperate in some situation, we find in ourselves atributes  that can lead to our greatness. Because than we learn in that weakness point so much information that can be transformed to someting amazingly beautiful. 

We must start to value ourselves and at least a bit start to change our view of ourselves. Find that little time for ourselves, in which we can do something relaxing or something good for us. Maybe its just a 10 minutes walk or relaxing bath, but we must start. And slowly we will start to feel better. 

Sometimes its a pain or axiety, that makes us really do the action and change our lifes, go different direction. When we don't want to solve the real root of the problem, it often comes back leting us know what we have to do. And sometimes it big presssure and pain or depeare, but we can manage evwrything, even though it may seem impossible now. 

When we start value ourselves and pay attention to our needs, we can fill those needs for love and calm. Than we find peace and happiness, real joy that comes from inside of us. And we can find our passions or we can spread our love and also encouragement to others. We all need it so much. The world can be so beautifull place to live when we stop judge people, gossip or talk negative, criticise, but instead of that lets find that beautifull place of calm and happiness inside of us and spread it everywhere. 

You can't imagine how big challengess life gave me, but i'm stillso gratefull for so many simple things in life and i believe it all will change for better. Our faith, our hope and our love are atributes that helps us with our healing so much.

Love is above all, those that seem not to need it, needs it the most.

 

What if we start to believe that we are not able to feel love?

What if we think that something is wrong with us and we just can't feel all that love feeling that others speak about?

What if we went through some trauma and need to heal and open our heart again?

Or maybe we are just perfectly normal, but didn't meet the right person yet...

I love this song for great voice of this singer, there is something magical on it, so i want to share it here..I love the singer and I love this song, and I put it here only for inspiration, how person can feel sometimes...

Faouzia - great song, beautiful voice, song about emotions..Love

Can we feel love? That magical feeling that completely and fully makes us weak and strong at the same time?

That feeling that lets us lose our words,  that makes our body tremble. That strong feeling that completely  changes our views on everything. The feeling that gives us such strong bond with a stranger.  

Can we feel it or it's just for few people to experience it? How come we don't feel it? I strongly believe that our body gives us signs. Signs that are sometimes not reasonable for our mind at all.  But our body knows what's good for us and we should listen to it.  

I had a marriage with a person who started to act very jealous,  obsessive and bad. Was controlling me and hurting me verbally deeply.  I thought I can do it and was forgiving him and helping him. I was thinking he is sick and needs my help. After a long time something happened. I started to shake inside every time I was around him. I realised that even if my mind is willing to continue and help him,  my body refused.  How come?  I didn't  understand it. But my body was giving me a strong sign. And after that I let go. Let go of my trying, and started to work for myself and my children.   

After this broken dream of beautiful family, by  being hurt by his behaviour and still was feeling some guilt I started to doubt myself whether I am able to love. Maybe from the reason of being hurt again,  maybe from the reason that it was hard for my to open my heart again. I mean open. We sometimes open it only half way and then we wonder how come we don't  feel strong  emotions.. But we have to heal our past, accept our falls and open our heart fully. I know its a brave act,  because it can happen again,  but we cannot love only half way. We have to put everything into it again without thinking about our past. 

In my life I  still have to  work on accepting the situation,  that my loved family has passed away,  at the same time getting divorce from serious reasons and I've lost possessions. So I'm trying to find out how my life will be now.  Where will I live?  Alone? Happy or not?  Will I manage it?  I try to keep on going and not concern about sorrows and fears that much.  My life really teaches me not to be attached to things and people. Maybe this is the growth.  

Last week something happened  to me.  There was a man who I worked with and he came to me and asked me if I'd stay with him.  That it's  his biggest wish.  He said he's  just buying a house in the capital in worth over 1milion dollars and it could be mine.  He said he gives me everything what I want.  But do you know what happened?  I mean what happened  with  my heart?  Nothing.  Seriously  nothing.  Wasn't I  supposed  to feel love and emotions?  How come it's not working?  No shaking no strong feeling... Omg. My heart  doesn't work.  Well but what if it does?  I mean we sometimes have so many arguments  about the other person that he's the right one,  that we stop listen to our heart.  Our body will tell us the best.  And I decided to strongly believe in my heart. I will not be afraid if my life gets sometimes in harder situations.  I believe we always get certain strength in it to overcome it. And I believe that the right person will come into our lifes and we will feel it and recognize  it that it's just great.  Now it's time for us to work on ourselves,  be content, kind and loving.... and most of all patient. 

 

Relationship's hardest question..painfull decissions

The hardest decision in relationships : Forgive and stay or forgive and let go?

What if we love someone who is not good for us? 

What if our mind tells us we have to let go of him and our heart refuses to do so? 

How can we love such  person? Why it's so hard to let go? 

We have this beautiful image of our family and our partner inside of us and we hope for it. We would do anything for it.  We try, we work,  we love,  we forgive his bad behaviour out of love. And we forgive over and over because  we are beautiful people,  we think that our partner has the same values and visions and love like us. But what if all of this is just our love that keeps the relationship alive.. What if his love is selfish,  full of hurting us,  full of complains,  full of humiliation or even abuse. What if he teaches us and our children that love coexists together with pain? And what if we still deeply love the person who hurts our feelings.  How can that be?  

Sometimes it happens that we are so kind and loving and successfull that the partner starts to be jealous of our great attributes and he puts us down  continuously to be himself in control. Me personally  took it a long time to finally see it. I always thought that I made something wrong, and tried to improve. And what happened  I worked and tried and worked and it never was enough good.  I managed to accomplish  many things and more I did good,  the worse our relationship  got.  And than I finally  understood that I must leave him. 

I must leave my husband that I loved,  because he will not value me.  Because he wants love that is selfish,  that is only about fulfilling his needs.  I started to see things in true colors. And I didn't  like it.  He said  all the time how much he loves me and was hurting me badly just in a little while afterwards. And over and over. 

In such situation  like this,  when there is obvious  no chance  to improve, we should go. We should leave and even if our heart is broken and we don't know if  we able  to handle it,  we should take an action.  We should let go.. How painful to give up our dreams of beautiful  family. How much sorrow it brings to everyone. How much strength will be needed to overcome  it.  But we must move on and have faith that it's all for our good.  We want this relationship  work so badly that we stop seeing how bad impact it has on us. 

Maybe God has a different  path for us prepared and we must get ready.  Once one priest said: may God give you life in which you can love. And that hit me.  Because  I tried to love and forgive all the time a person that loved me in so selfish way and was hurting me all the time. And it was so hard.  I believe that in such cases we must get strong and let go.  Wish him good and let go. And the love that is stored in us and that is immense, we should give to those who deserve it.  Or give them more to our children,  or people around,  family and friends or some people that need it.. and one day the real love will come to our life and it will not hurt but heal.. Than everything will make sense. 

Do not be afraid of your loses.  One day you may realise they were not such loses,  but blessings that opened you a door to something  greater and more beautiful.  Have faith. 

Never give up! What a strength!

Song from Anna Slovackova called Even if we bald..

Inspiring people rocks!

This cute amazing girl fights cancer and shows other people how to be great example... Much respect and admiration.  Before this happened  her parents as both famous people were going through  difficult and bad divorce throwing stuff at each other through media. And suddenly their pretty daughter showed us everybody that being so  classy, opened,  kind and strong that all of us can feel ashamed by our small problems that we see so big.  We always should remember  what is important in life.. Not a revenge but peace and love... 

Her words in the song are:

Even though  we bald

you and me,  me and you

we take it easy

even though  we have worries,  

that are sometimes  so big

our head is light.

Even though  sometimes  people get scared when  they  see us, 

you don't have to  feel  sorry for  us. 

We are also humans. 

and we take every day as it would be our last one. 

 

Even if we bald,  you and me,  me and you,

we are happy  from all the simple things, 

and in winter our caps not spoil our hairstyle, 

and if we look funny for you, 

it's always better to laugh than to be bored in silence. 

Even though the destiny gave us a hard challenge, 

we got up and keep on going. 

 

Even if  we bald,  me and you,  you and me, 

we also have advantages, 

hats looks well on us, 

we feel better in hot weather, 

and save money on hairdressers. 

And even though we are not according  to the best beauty standards,  

we don't  have to worry anymore that we lose our hair

And because: There could worse things happened,

for example to give up without a fight! 

 

How can I find peace in the middle of chaos?

What should I do if i am so calm and generous person and I only get pain in my life?

How I can live in peace when there are so many problems around me that I have to take care of?

What If I have economic difficulties and because of that I cannot live in peace?

First: "Talk to yourself like you would to someone you love."

The fact you are in this situation is very difficult, but it happened and you will find way out so you can live peacefully. You work on it and you must continue to work on this step by step.  The journey can be long, and sometimes full of saddness and fear, but once you get out of this you become wise with your heart wide opened.  You will see the problems of others clearly and you will be able to help them much more. But the most important of all is that you will find joy. You will find gratitude,  you will see the world in bright colours and not only grey or black and white.

Once someone told me:  "Look how I am good.  I would never get involved in anything that would put any dirt or shade on me. I never had to deal with any problems like you do. "

I thought about it and I think that it´s like when we plant a flower, we also get our hands dirty.  But the final product is beautiful.  And in life we sometimes have to deal bad things to be able to solve the whole situation and do it good.  And that means we are brave!  It also means that we are better than those that didn´t dare to help. And we can be proud of ourselves. I am very loyal person and fairness is very important to me.  But sometimes we have to put things in order in our lives and it is very hard.

In my life happened that after my father´s death his colegues and partners robbed out his companny and it got that bad that even the machines and cars were gone.  I was trying to help it, but the greed of others was bigger then what i was able to  do.  Money were disepearing from his account and and his long term projects were put on different names and incomes from it went to someone else.  Than some man came with some documents saying that my father owed him money and scared my mum who was after brain surgery and wasn´t able to think straight that it was just a game, so she signed him paper to keep the building of my dad´s company. The documents about my dad´s loan were fake and he just pushed her when I wasn´t around. 

I thought what is this world about?  How come people can take advantage in death of a person that have done so much good for them? I still don´t have answers.  I believe that we should do what we can about problems in our life.  But I also believe that we get better than what we lose. Noone can be long term happy from getting possesions in an unfair way.  But we who solve our problems in a  honest way with opened heart we win.  Maybe we will not win now.  But we will for sure get another chances and will find another views and we can use all the bad things and transform it into good things.  And we will win in life!!!  Because our good soul cannot be stolen and it only growths.  It growths to be better and wiser and more and more beautiful and strong.

Because: "Growths is often uncomfortable, messy, and full of feelings you weren´t expecting."

And that´s why I say: "Forgive yourself for making mistakes, forgive others for being childlish and not mature,  and be thankfull for who you are.  And be ready for all the beauty that´s opening in front of you.  And believe. "

What if our life path is sometimes too difficult to walk?

What if our burden that we carry is too heavy?

What if our life feels like hanging above chasm?

What if we look around and are shocked by so many dissapointments? By so much sadness we have to carry?

One proverb says: Our strenth grows in the moments when we think we can´t go on, but we keep going anyway.

We would like to have our comfortable easy and happy life that we imagine in our minds.  But instead of it we have to face many difficult challanges that we aren´t ready for.  We don´t want them.  But those hard times teach us so much about ourselves, about people around us, and about life.  Sometimes we feel long  before this happens, that something is not as it should be.  But we do nothing about it.  And suddenly, we face the situation that slowly but definitely change the direction of our path.  We move towards the crossroad and we don´t want to go there, because there we have to decide which directrion to go next.  But we wish to go back, where we used to be.  It was so nice there, but there is no way back. It is a one way road leading us to the crossroad. 

Life teaches us many things.  And does it over and over if we don´t get it. We are here to learn.  To understand that we have to make ourselves priority in life too.  We cannot be dependeble only on others, it´s so nice, but it usually will not last forever. When we learn that, and start to really value ourselves, we find happiness that we can share much more than before.

I faced so many dissapointments in my life including deaths of my loved ones,  dishonesty when wolves stole our hard gained possessions, i faced pathological behaviour of a person i loved and many times I was thinking how come such unfairness exists. But now I slowly start to understand that it all teaches us to be better people, to have more empathetic heart, to be stronger that we had ever been before and to value ourselves the way we are.  We think we are very ordinary and see people around us to be so strong and beautiful and self confident, but it is not like that. We must realise that we all are just  great the way we are.  And our gifts are so big, and we must see them and use them.

Sometimes I feel like the snail carrying his home on his back.  But it is a heavy burden and the road is very difficult. Sometimes we have to crawl though difficult paths.  And sometimes we realise we cannot make it this way if we won´t lower the heavy burden on our shoulders.  And than we have to release things or people from our lives.  We have to let go.  Or let go of our pain that we have stored in ourselves from the past or release the sadness of the people that we lost along the way.  We have to calm ourselves and accept the situation with faith and hope and step in our days calm and content.

It is very difficult, but we are great and amazing people. And we can do it.

"Hope is being able to see that there is light despite all of the darkness."

 

 

Hello. 

My name is Lenka.  I am 40. I am a mom of two beautiful teenage girls.  My life has been very up side down lately, but I always try to find the good on everything.  My life has tought me many things and as I have noone to tell, I decided to share it here. 

Maybe it can inspire you to see your life from a different angle too and helps you to get new motivation to get up again and with a positive attitude to do your things and be happy. Maybe I could engcourage someone to share here as well and together when women suport each other, we can make many amazing things happen. 

Many people nowadays are closed home in a quarantine.  Me too.  I live in a small european country where we have been told by govermnet  to stay home and today it´s been like that the whole month already.  And even though it´s not easy I do not want to be sad or worried, but maybe I can see it also as a chance to think and do things differently. Maybe now it´s the right time to start to do or learn something new, that I have always wanted.

Please try like that too and keep your spirit high, so we can encourage others around us. We all need it. You,  all of you are in my mind.  All the people that try to give the best from themselves, who try to overcome their problems and focus on the positive in their lives.   Because there are always so many things to be grateful and happy for.   Love you.